Swimming in the depths of my aching heart

About the Ghosts of Time collection

Time is strange, isn’t it? Supposedly, it goes past then present then future. Yet, our experience of time is quite different than that. The drawings and mixed media artworks in my Ghosts of Time series reflect the complexity of time and memory.

Being a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and having complex PTSD … time and memory is something I think about a lot, and struggle with. Part of me wants to forget and disconnect from my past. At the same time, remembering and believing myself is a part of me healing from my past.

Haunting memories, or pain that I carry with me into an open present and future? It’s both. When I’m drawing, I am able to bear the heaviness of my memories. When I’m drawing, I tap into the wordless. With every line, I am coming back to myself and moving through something vital and pouring something out of myself too.

There’s something so pure, expressive, and vulnerable about how bare a drawing can be, these simple movements of charcoal on a page.